In this performance autoethnography, the writer explores how a person, a young woman, opens her eyes to the occupation of the Palestinian territories, patriarchal values, her social privilege and her positioning as both oppressed and as an oppressor. The writer attempts to sequence her personal and sexual biographies, while resisting the dichotomies of personal/political, privilege/oppressive, and pleasure/pain; contextualizing one’s sexual, gendered, and ethnic body, at different positions of ignoring and resisting power relations.

Keywords feminist studies, gender and sexuality, autoethnography, ethnographies, methodologies, performance ethnography